Charming...

I think it's safe to post this entry.........it's a birthday entry.  The birthday is Helen's and I think she'll be too busy having a birthday breakfast with her gorgeous children to see this entry before I meet with her later and give her her pressie........

A while ago I made a large bag out of charm squares........Helen saw it and loved it and asked for one.  I hunted round for the right fabrics for her, found some I thought she'd love and have made it for her for her birthday.........I think it's safe to post a piccie, and won't spoil the surprise.........

I love these fabrics, they're so bright, sunny and cheerful............just what we need for a typical English summer's day.........now to work out the best way to wrap it!!!!!

Moving on....

Thank goodness for sewing.......I do truly lose myself in sewing, far more so than reading a book - the other thing I love to do.  When things get difficult for me I head out to my studio, immerse myself in sewing and leave the nonsense at the door.

I can't do anything more about the situation me and Ross found ourselves in at the weekend.......we have done all we can for now and have to trust that justice will be done.  So in true Julsie fashion, I have now managed to wipe it from my everyday concious mind and am sewing.  Lots of things to do......have got the backing for Chaz's quilt, just need to get the wadding........have 2 baby quilts to make.......have lots more stuff to make for our sale in November.........a couple of other things that I can't mention, I'd spoil the surprise..........

I can keep my hands and mind busy with all these things, I'm nothing if I'm not practical.........emotionally, I won't even go there at the moment, for fear of falling apart and their being too many pieces to know how to put them back together.........it may not be the best or the right way to deal with this, but it's the only way I know how to keep moving forward........my life has felt like a drama lately so maybe it's fitting that I wear a mask and act the part.

So from tomorrow, after a full day's sewing, I think I'll be able to say 'normal service has resumed'......see you soon

Lost....

None of us are perfect, and I especially know that to be true about me.  I am far from perfect in lots of ways but one thing I have always tried to do is be a good person to others.  So the pain when you are torn apart by someone you considered a friend, cuts very deep.

I wonder did she feel anything when she got home yesterday after verbally attacking me and Ross and looked around her house at all the memories of us......all the furniture we have given them, fridge freezer, bed, table and chairs, BBQ, footstool, computer, drum kit.........the food we have filled their cupboards and fridge with, the money we have lent them to clear debts..........did she regret saying we were the most selfish people she had met, that everything we had done was out of spite..........I don't think she did.  Like I said, I'm not perfect and I can be pretty nasty myself too when I've completely lost my temper, but I don't think I would have ever had the cheek to say those things to someone who has only ever given to me........no, I don't think she had any regrets at all.

Lost is the title of this blog entry, because I don't know how else to feel.  I feel cast adrift, me and my hurt floating in this huge sea of.......of.........well I don't know what........a sea of muck and mess..........and I fear it is slowly pulling me under..........

Just a quickie...

Recently I saw an online friend had made this superb pegbag, it was from a Swedish quilting magazine but Nicola assured me that the pictures were very easy to follow, so I obtained the magazine and had a go.....

She was right, it was very easy.  I made one at my friend Chris's house yesterday and as all her pegs fitted in it perfectly I left it with her and came home and made another one.......I love them, so much nicer the bog-standard pegbags you usually see......this is it, hot off the machine, so empty of pegs, I'll try to get a better piccie soon....

Getting on...

Well I think I'm over the jetlag........although I am pretty tired most of the time but I think that's caused by other things/pressures........holiday seems like a distant memory now and I only got home 8 days ago - pretty sad don't you think???

Chaz has gone off to Newday and so while she's away I'm getting on with her quilt for Uni this September........she saw a pack of fabrics I had bought and loved them, so I thought I'd use them for her quilt.  When I went to Chris's on Tuesday for quilting I cut all the top out, and then while Chaz has been out I've been starting to piece the top.......it's a very simple quilt but the fabrics were so lovely I didn't want to do too much to them, I just wanted them to speak for themselves.  The blocks are all done and I have just got to sew them together to complete the top.  I want to get this done and sandwiched up with the wadding and backing before Chaz comes home on Friday, then I will have a month or so to quilt it - should be plenty of time, right?????

This is a pic of the quilt when I laid out all the blocks on my studio floor, just to (hopefully) get them in the right position........I think it's pretty alright, so I might just leave it as it is.......unless any of you see anything glaringly obviously that should not go together and let me know - LOL.........might not be back this week as every spare minute I will be trying to finish the top........